Tuesday, July 30, 2013

If I got rid of my demons, I'd lose my angels.


That’s how you know you know really trust someone, I think; when you don’t have to talk all the time to make sure they still like you or prove that you have interesting stuff to say
—Sara Zarr
 
List of things you can't therapy away (Part #1):
 
  *Your girlfriend attempting to drown herself in front of you—the darkness, the repetition, the fear
*Undressing your girlfriend to find a bloody cut on her thigh shaped like your name
*Your girlfriend getting up to watch TV after sex, refusing to look you in the eyes or speak your name—as if you'd never met, as if she barely recognised your face, as if you meant nothing.
Walking home and deciding you didn’t mind if you died at any second; being unable to see past the pain of that moment; experiencing the haunting feeling of psychiatric pain (this inescapable feeling will continue to haunt you forever*)
 
*subject to recovery