Saturday, September 28, 2013

i'm sorry, i'm so difficult.

Fun fact: currently you have a higher chance of survival if you are diagnosed with ALL leukemia (survival rates for adults is 80%-90% and 88% for children) than bipolar disorder II (the suicide rate is 40%). This statistic excludes relapses in both illnesses. ALL has a 40% cure rate after relapse, while the risk of suicide in patients with bipolar disorder II doubles. We need to start viewing mental illness as just as life threatening as other forms of illness or disease...perhaps even more so, as it doesn't have the support, treatment options or public recognition as diseases such as leukemia.
“To be mindful of overwhelming pain seems all but impossible.” —Kiera van Gelder
“My whole experience of these episodes was that someone else was doing it; it was like ‘I know this is coming, I’m out of control, somebody help me; where are you, God?’ I felt totally empty, like the Tin Man; I had no way to communicate what was going on, no way to understand it.” —Marsha Linehan
 “But nothing came to mind. And inside that “nothing” lives something awful: a falling through black, blank space with my insides on fire. I knew I needed distance between myself and my feelings so I could observe, but just being with my feelings was like being possessed. I didn’t need mindfulnes; I needed an exorcism.” —Kiera van Gelder
“People with BPD are like people with third degree burns over 90% of their bodies. Lacking emotional skin, they feel agony at the slightest touch or movement.” —Marsha Linehan
“Despite feeling continually victimized by others, a borderline desperately seeks out new relationships; for solitude, even temporary aloneness, is more intolerable than mistreatment.”—Jerold J. Kreisman & Hal Straus
Images from the aspiring German photographer Tina Sosna