Tuesday, December 3, 2013

jolene - please don't take him, even if you can.

List of (cryptic) thing's you've missed:
-Tiffany & Co - daily and fatigue based
-Surgery - just like N₂
-Thought of July - no dusk before dawn
-What happened on the porch at 32 degrees - not again, why me?
-Anniversaries and milestones - three (J), two (P), one (?)
-Memories and stories of Danish and British triumph - increased sensitivity
-Ultrasound - cysts, lumps, hormones, bumps
-Traumatic retail therapy - American Appeal
-Preparing to face monsters - both via letters
-Phone calls at midnight - you'll look back at this and it won't matter
-Tangible justification - maximum of seven
Please excuse the following coping mechanism...
“Reckless disregard - grossly negligent without concern for danger to others. Actually reckless disregard is redundant since reckless means there is a disregard for safety.” —US law's definition of reckless disregard

Others imply that they know what it is like to be depressed because they have gone through a divorce, lost a job, or broken up with someone. But these experiences carry with them feelings. Depression, instead, is flat, hollow, and unendurable. It is also tiresome. People cannot abide being around you when you are depressed. They might think that they ought to, and they might even try, but you know and they know that you are tedious beyond belief: you are irritable and paranoid and humorless and lifeless and critical and demanding and no reassurance is ever enough. You’re frightened, and you’re frightening, and you’re 'not at all like yourself but will be soon,' but you know you won’t.” —Kay Redfield Jamison
“Deliberate indifference occurs when a professional knows of and disregards an excessive risk to an inmate’s health or safety.” —US law's definition of deliberate indifference
“A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they’d be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face she inquired, 'How heavy is this glass of water?' The answers called out ranged from 8oz to 20 oz. She replied, 'The absolute weight doesn’t matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, its not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I’ll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn’t change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.' She continued, 'The stress and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them for a big longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed - incapable of doing anything.' Always remember to put the glass down.” —Unknown